...sPeAk fOr mE...

I am not sure ive given you all the impression that my life is full of stress but..its not. lol i actually had a great week! every journey has its bumps but im glad to see another day. i was able to go see Trey Songz and Piles in concert this week at a club. I was happy to finally see Trey Songz outside of my dreams. lol i am guilty of lust wen it comes to him and so i became how do u say camera happy wen i was ten steps away from him...

after picking up my jaw and regaining my composure i was shocked to find out that Trey , i feel comfortable at this point since i was ten steps away from him to call him by his first name, was really grounded. I wouldnt say hood but i would say regular as hell. He used common folk words like "shit" "fuck" and "ass"frequently. lol His jeans were Levi and his shirt ed hardy. nice taste. a man after my own heart. i would have done sum antique jeans but hey dark denim levi will do. truth is i fell in love wit the dude even more after hearing that he can truly sing and his not sum manufactured good looking dude. two snaps to Trey Songz performance ...and his good looks!



i am not a Plies fan. wait i guess i should say i wasnt one before seeing him live. He was also grounded he used words such as "pussy" and "fuck" in every sentence thou! lol

but really he put on a nice show besides having more security than obama

he was conversational with the audience he kept jumping down into the crowd and letting people on stage which to me showed that he wasn't on that "i think i am better than u" tip. Huge love to Plies he has a nu fan and Trey well he can have a nu baby mama if thats wat his looken for! LOL although i did see the following picture of mediatakeout.com that was on sum his getten married rumor tip whcih im hopen isnt tru!!



anyway so i was graced with the superstar encounters and then i headed to the tattoo shop later in the week and got tatt #6 to fuel the "shes the crazy one" role i play in the family. :)

FYI every tatt i rock means sumthen to me and this one was no different. i opt not to get stupid stuf like stars , flowers, and hearts, and sum random dudes name who use to love me last summer type tattoos. this one was for my deceased first love and best friend. i got it in wat the tattoo man said was " THE WORST PLACE TO GET A TATT" .yes it hurt but they all do and the ironic thing was it was the one that hurt the least lol i guess mario soothed the pain or could have been that ive become immuned to that annoying feeling and sound of the tattoo gun? i am bein accused of being addicted but really its just the rush i get from knowing i am making a life changing decision. kinda like making a baby lol but not really. i kno people who've made babies and felt nothing but the alcohol during the act! lol n e way i feel like my tatts are a snap shot of were i was at during that time in my life.... i guess this one was just another picture to add to my album.


im rapping up the week remembering childhood memories for sum reason.

i called my dad today and ran thru memories of past halloweens and holidays.

i could hear in his voice how much he wished we were still the same little girls who loved Barbies instead of boys and were satisfied with collecting rocks and playing tag instead clubs and clothes. i think he is happy about who we"ve become thou and it was funny to hear that the same issues i have with men he had with women. i guess its in the genes! lol out of all the issues i have with my parents i can never say they didnt play their roles. i had a perfect childhood and wen it threatend to become imperfect i think i just ignored the imperfections.


anywho its always nice to take it back wit the folks but i was more excited to tell u guys about SISTA SOULJAH 's nu book due Nov 4,2008.

She finally is pickin up from were she left off! if u havent read the book the coldest winter ever u r truly depriving ur brain of entertainment and i can no longer associate myself with u! read it! Midnight was a charcter fuck it the character in the book that kept u guessing! its about tyme she followed up that book its been a good five years since i read the first book . for those of u who unaware of who exactly sista souljah is i got the following from her website to fill u in:

Sister Souljah, hip-hop generation best selling author, activist, recording artist, and film producer, is the most powerful and meaningful person speaking to youth and students today. Her intelligence is unselfish. She shines as she offers cultural, spiritual, political, economical, practical analysis and constructive solutions with the precision of a surgeon. Souljah’s words, thoughts, lessons, and books are transforming the next generation. Once you have heard her speak, it’s impossible for you to remain the same. You’ll change the way you think, love and live.

so now that ur filled in fill free to indluge cus she is truly my idol and brillant!

enuf about her i wanted to end this session with a little sharing. im in a sharing mood. the following is saying exactly how im feelen while im currently crawlin to move on with my life i can still say im pissed about even haven to go thru this situation. wen i asked my dad about it he told me "its part of life" i guess thats the nice way of sayen " baby girl we all get shitted on". i havent been in much of the "writing from the pissed of part of my heart" mood latley so wen that occurs its sumtymes its easier to let others words speak for u rather then u speaking for ur self. i am sharen poems by Dana Gilmore ( a classic throwback) and Kanye's bittersweet which will never get old cus its no lie how i feel word for word. i also added a link to Erykah Badu's friends, fans, artist. i am humbled at her talent so i am more than a fan its more like i am trying to mirror her steps in hopes of slipping on her path. i added her link cus... hell shes the shit and sumtymes u just need to smile:) her peice was worth the smile! extremely clever..very much my style. im beggen u to click the links and enjoy cus both r talented and sumhow are speaking the words that my heart is afraid to write rite now. so Dana and Kanye take us away:

Kanye:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X1GtBpIORJY

Dana:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=INF-Ou6oGW8

Erykah:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vdv4o0jSX4s